Unbecoming

In a span of seven days, I transacted with, met, and saw several people who are so unbecoming. Just a few minutes ago, I talked to a well-known bank's Customer Service staff via phone. The tone of her voice was so arrogant. She spoke in Filipino but didn't use "po" and "opo". I am the customer, but as if she was just talking to a non-customer whom she doesn't respect. I see her whenever I visit their branch and her personality depicts what she is on phone. What a front-liner?!

The other people, I couldn't disclose their identities sa sobrang dami nila, mostly girls.

These people are so irritating, right? I even asked myself the reason for their existence for they aren't of any help to me and to many others who are also irritated of them.

Nevertheless, I need to see things in a positive way. Kahit negatibo na agad ang pinakita nila sa akin, kailangan kong barahin 'yon. My upbeat thought in this post is that they are obstacles that I must surpass to test my calmness and grace no matter what the situation is.

I can do this because I must surpass this. Che!

Love

I have been thinking several times whether to write on this or not. The causes of my hesitation are that I might not get the thoughts right, I might miss some other things, or I might feel the pain again. Basta, bahala na.

2009 was really memorable to me and taught me many things about love.

Before, whenever I see a couple na isa lang sa kanila ang may magandang itsura o ang nasa magandang estado sa buhay, I used to ask myself, "Why?" and then arrive at a conclusion that "Yung isa sa kanila hindi nag-iisip nang mabuti."

But when I experienced being alone (you know what I mean), I realized sobrang maling mali ako, as in. So immature of me to have such thought. Well, probably, 'yung iba, hindi na nag-isip nang mabuti kasi malapit na sila sa "finish line" or just very desperate to move on and forget the previous pain they felt.

Pero sa totoo lang, true love does not see the physicality of an individual, I mean kung sinuman man 'yung taong mamahalin 'nya. It's the feeling that everything would be alright whenever you are with him/her. It's the feeling that every hindrance would be surpassed with him/her as your number one supporter.

I also learned that some of the secrets of a lasting relationship as in marriage is that one has to be submissive to his/her partner at kapag nakakasakal na ng sobra, well, talk it over, talk it over, and talk it over because marriage is so sacred that nothing should ever break it. Hindi ito tulad ng pagiging mag-jowa na pwdeng mag-break or cool-off at kapag ayaw na talaga, go search for another one or merely wait.

Moreover, I learned that if you really love a person, you will give the best for him/her; OR if ever you lost him/her and you want him/her back, punan mo ang lahat ng naging pagkukulang mo sa kanya. Lugi ka nga lang kung talagang ayaw na sa'yo ng tao at ibang usapan na ito.

In summary, the failed relationship I had with one of the very important persons in my life opened my eyes to the world of reality that once in a while, one has to be alone to see the world clearly in his own perspective for him to think of accurate things for his survival.

New

I woke up at 5:45AM. I knew I would be experiencing the super hassle in MRT, so I decided to take a bus instead. Though at the back of my mind was that thought that I might be late for work, I did not make the motion I usual do whenever I am getting late. Rather, I did things (pagtupi ng mga nilabhang damit, pag-ayos ng higaan, and preparing myself for work) calmly, which is something new for me. As I walk through the roads going to EDSA and then to our office building, I felt like everything was new, though they were all familiar.

I do not know if I am just convincing myself to see all things new to forget all the kabadtripan in 2009 or I just miss this jungle after a 10-day vacation with Mt. Mayon in my sight.

To be a calm person is really one of my New Year's resolution. 2009 had been so harsh to me, in all aspects, which are depicted on my previous posts. It was also the year when I had lots of panics. So for 2010, I will lessen those and be a calm person.